Too many thots

So many thoughts flood me now…..

There are times when I felt that my shift to Chennai would’ve been avoided and I would’ve stayed in my fav city Hyderabad. But for the past 2 weeks, I am thankful of my stay here, which in a way makes me closer to my Appa.  My presence is not going to change many things, but it helps to heal my heart that I am nearer to my Appa, than a STD call.  I feel that I am in the right and destined place, now. I don’t think I could’ve been able to take so many days off from my girls’ school schedule and made a trip to Chennai. So, this is the best place for me, today.

He is healing, but its taking time…..some medicines take the longest time to show some results. And we are stuck in the longest time braces.

But we are hopeful….What’s life without hope, huh ???? Even though every moment tries hard in breaking the wall of hope, the heart succeeds in maintaining the wall of hope strong with the love towards the fatherly soul.

All your words of hope and prayer, is so much close to my heart….here are the hearts that are praying for my Appa, which is a great healer.

Diwali being so close….just 4 days away, there are so many things to do….but the heart is not responding to so many things….

Yet, I am consoling myself to make some sweets and other things for the sake of my daughters…..

Last Diwali was terrible with shifting to Chennai and we never got to celebrate my fav festival properly. This time I shouldn’t let the worries of the heart interfere with the celebrations….

The heart is not a dumbo….it understands perfectly what the desires are. And also that not all desires are approved by the Moderator above us….but still we wish that the desires are not sent to SPAM or Deleted Permanently !! We start praying at least for a delayed approval !!! How silly of the heart to expect so much, all in the hope that all our desire will be granted or approved !!!

Those things which get granted for us, whether desired by us or not, are for us to handle and prove that we are worthy of living.  They are life’s tasks to us, to prove our capabilities.

Am I blabbering ??? Or u think that I am philosophical suddenly ????  Its all the confusion and gap between the likes of the heart and the granted ones by the Moderator and the mind’s unstableness in accepting them !!!!

Here’s a wish for Healthy Happiness to my Dad !!!

Here’s a prayer for the Strength of the mind and heart to handle the situation !!!

Here’s a warm hug to all my dear friends, for helping me, by their lovely chat/sms msgs and hugs and mails.

Here’s a congratulatory hug to myself for at last understanding the need behind my presence in this city.