Because I just learnt that your soul is here for a few days, before it goes to Heaven. I don’t know whether I believe that part, that your soul will be here for a few days only….but still I felt like letting my heart out, to you.
Did I stay with you for only 24 years ??? While I don’t remember the years spent as a small girl, the school age was spent more in playing and of course, the school. The teenage saw me studying and focusing on what to do next, while you were so busy working hard, to make us into better persons. I spent the next few years, mostly in the office where I worked, as I was a compulsive workaholic !!!
Its only when I became a parent, I understood all about the parental love and how much I wanted to be with my children forever. How much ever time we spend with the children is not enough to express all the love we feel for them.
May be I should have spent more time with you, Appa, than spending the time on watching TV or working late hours or whatever…. Because now I feel that all those times together are not enough.
My younger one misses S, whenever he is on tour. But when S is at home, both of them keep fighting and arguing over silly things, calling me to play judge. I always feel that she needs his presence in the home. Its very important to feel someone presence….it keeps us strong and going.
I too miss your presence now, Appa. Its terrible to visit home and see Ma without you being there.
There’s so much to write, so much to let out….but these stupid tears make it difficult to type.
You are there in our mind, heart, words and everything…you can never leave us from the memories. Miss you Pa….May your Soul RIP !!!
And Thank You for all the messages, phone calls, flowers….am deeply touched. Your support gave me the strength to handle everything.