Perfect or NOT ????

I consider myself as a perfectionist and am truly one.   Previously, I was not able to handle imperfections in people and that led me to a lot of problems.  After lot of mellowing, I’ve come to the stage to accept people how they are and never get judgemental with others.  It’s such a difficult task for me that I keep reminding myself constantly that every individual is different and that its stupid of me to expect others to do things in the same way as I do.

WOW, Uma, your philosophy rocks !!! Patting myself on my back 😆 😆 !!!!

I am very confident of the things I do – I never agree to do things of which I’ve no idea.  I’ll ask for time to learn them and then do it to perfection, my style.

There is this wonderful person, my friend and guide too, whom I respect so much.  It gives me so much happiness, when HE appreciates the job I’ve done.  I value HIS opinions and even ask my hubby to take HIS advice on various issues.  HE holds such an important place in our lives.  The kids too adore HIM.

But, whenever HE is around, I am fumbling – with my action or my words.  In my effort to do things the perfect way, I become so anxious.  Because of this anxiety, I make small mistakes while talking or doing certain things.  HE being the wonderful person, smiles at me and never says anything.  But, I feel terrible from inside.  Me, the perfect proud cat, doesn’t like things to happen this way.  But, it is happening.  It’s embarrassing for me. I am feeling so stupid.

I realise and regret the actions done in the fumbling anxiety, once HE is not around.  When my hubby discusses about those things, I feel so bad.

Why am I not the same person, when HE is around ??????   What makes me fumble like this ??????? How should I handle this situation ???????