He is a lovely memory now…

Yesterday when I went out, there was something that yelled at me !!!

Yes, it was the Mavadu and I didn’t hesitate an extra moment to buy them. And then there was this fleeting thought that my Dad will love this tiny Mavadu, as they taste the most delicious.

There was this tangential thought about a post I wrote last Mavadu season and how I terribly missed my Dad and the silly fights we had for sharing this Mavadu.  But this year, buying Mavadu brought a smile of acknowledgement that Dad loves this and I had to do it well to make him proud. Even though there is this feeling of missing him from time to time, I hold onto him as a wonderful memory to judge my actions.

And everyday brings in more memories and thoughts about him. That day when we were parked opposite a temple, I saw someone emerge out of the temple and got an instant shock – he absolutely resembled my Dad. For a minute I thought it was him.  But instead of crying over it, I felt good to see his image wherever or whenever I want.  That goes on to show that Dad is a loving memory in the heart and mind.

I found two soap covers in his cupboard and brought it home, for they smelled totally of him than of the soap. My father’s scented viboothi (the ash to apply on the forehead) smell is now a strong memory thanks to those soap covers.

A year and 3 months gone by

But the heart still remembers his scent and words

There is this sense of missing him

The memory of his smiling face reaching out

To us

For now comes the understanding

That he is there here

Smiling and watching us

He is no more missed terribly

For he is a lovely memory !!!

 

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About Uma Srinivasan

A Stay At Home Mom trying desperately to make a difference, in whatever I do !!!
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40 Responses to He is a lovely memory now…

  1. scorpria says:

    Touching post. Very.
    And it’s wonderful knowing how he’s a lovely memory now!
    Hugs, Ums!

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  2. Bikram says:

    Loved the poem , indeed so true people we love are a lovely memory and will always be there with us around us ..

    Take care …

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  3. Bubblegum says:

    Very much touching. Hugs :)

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  4. Swaram says:

    Hugsss Ums!:) I feel my grandma living amidst us too, thru those smells which remind me of her and only her!:)

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  5. gskt says:

    Nice post Uma…you subtly track how time scaffolds your feelings…

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  6. Me says:

    Really touching…I have also recently lost a very loved one and I can completely relate to this feeling.

    BTW just saw your current read, I am also reading the same book right now and have loved it so far. :)

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    • UmaS says:

      The loss of loved ones always brings in such emotions, right ???
      Am glad u could relate…hugs.

      I am loving that book too…but I am going quite slow owing to other work at home.

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  7. Vaish says:

    Being in a loving memory, they can never be missed . They cannot go away from our thoughts!! Loved the post Uma!

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  8. suranga says:

    An ancient porcelain jar
    cleaned, sunned ,
    and
    slightly salt sprinkled
    and ecstatic
    at its own merry mavadus
    smiles
    as it remembers
    grandpa’s relish
    and the daughter’s skirmish
    over
    the tongue tickling
    stars of the mango season.

    Today,
    one of the members
    silver sprinkled hair,
    twinkling eyes
    and all,
    now
    only there in spirit,
    lights up in her mind
    and then
    he smiles indulgently
    as his daughter
    and her daughters
    continue the tradition
    of the skirmish….

    Like the mavadus
    the memories linger,
    with
    a light in her eyes
    and
    a smile in her heart…

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  9. R's Mom says:

    Hugs and more hugs..

    @Suranga – Loved what you wrote!

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  10. Ashwathy says:

    There comes a time when you learn to celebrate this life than mourn his death. You have reached that point now. Hugs :)

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  11. Smita says:

    I loved this post because there is something emotionally happy about it :)

    *hugs*

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  12. Smitha says:

    Hugs, Uma!!

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  13. Pixie says:

    Big Hugs Uma!!

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  14. Writerzblock says:

    A year already?! Time does fly, Uma. I’m so glad to see you relishing memories of your dad instead of feeling sad about it. That’s the spirit :-) Btw, you are tagged.

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  15. Priya says:

    Hugs Uma!
    Time has flown. Glad it has healed too :)

    @ Suranga: Simply loved the lines :)

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  16. Mala says:

    Lovely Memory Lovely Poem

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  17. You have been tagged!!

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  18. agnes says:

    Nice poem Uma, it brought back some memories of my own.

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  19. Shilpa Garg says:

    A big warm hug to you, Uma!

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  20. Hey keep the same spirit through out life…it’s always good to have loving memory of loved ones and feel good about it

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